It’s rare that I feel certain about anything. I definitely don’t feel certain about this blog… why am I starting it? What is it about? Do I have anything interesting to say? I guess I need to start with the why – what do I want out of this?
Why am I doing this?
- For myself – Primarily, this blog is an incentive for me to write. I used to write, years ago, but it’s been years since I wrote anything on a consistent basis. I know I once had a voice, but I’ve spent so long dulling my brain by clicking my days away, getting stuck for hours researching something that I already know, clicking through pages of lists and recommendations, all under the guise of productivity, that I feel like my brain is stuck. My voice is lost in bits and pieces of information – sentence fragments and headings. Maybe a blog will give me a way to sort through the clutter.
- For others – I know that I’m interesting, I’m certain of it. Maybe my experiences will be helpful to others searching for clarity, searching for order.
For now, I’ll do this for myself. It’ll take a while before writing comes naturally to me. I’ve let me brain get soft… expressing myself feels nearly impossible and words come to me in awkward fits and starts. I’ve spent so long in a state of passive inattention that I’ve lost the ability to actively think, process, and articulate. For now, this blog is a way for me to get back to myself. It’s an exercise bike for my brain.